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January 11th, 2012

Job dilemma

I've been working at my current workplace for almost two years. I really like the people and the mentality - except for my boss. I'm an assistant, so I'm constantly under his thumb. Unfortunately he's a micromanager who gets upset at the slightest mistake quite often. He doesn't yell but he'll pound the desk with his fist and say how disappointed he is. Most everyone at work has told me in private that they are glad they don't have my job since they wouldn't be able to put up with him.

I'd gotten to a place where I could handle this, but when Christmastime came, he suddenly became worse. At that time my co-worker, a fellow assistant for someone else, left and went to a much bigger bank. She told me they were hiring for someone with my exact skill set. At first I declined out of loyalty and a wish to not change everything again, but when my boss became worse I reconsidered and applied. I had two interviews, and they told me it was down to me and another woman. They wanted one more interview.

The whole time I had been (privately) freaking out because I hate interviewing more than anything and I didn't have peace about changing jobs. It's an extra 15-30 minutes of commute and possibly could have me facing some significant backups in the morning. It was also going to require me to get up at 5 instead of 6, and I already struggle mightily to wake up in the morning.

But the thing that made me call them and cancel the 3rd interview (and now I'm wondering if I should have) was a fear of making mistakes with new people, caused I think by my current boss's hyperactive reactions to any little mistake, and my feeling that I've mastered my current job description and a feeling of unwillingness to take on a new learning curve and possibly fail.

Did I make a big mistake? I'll never know. The two jobs offered the same pay but the new one offered medical benefits whereas the current one does not. But the stress of a new position would have been tough on me (I was feeling strong panicky feelings) and if I had failed there, I would have lost a sure thing.

I just hate not knowing whether I did the right thing. My husband is sure I made a mistake, but most of the time I feel peace about it. I'm 42 now and it's more important to me to have a work environment/commute that is less stressful, though I would have liked to have had a less micromanaging boss. Although I sensed the new one might be too.

June 21st, 2010

Fortunately he messaged me and asked what he had done to deserve my unfriending him. I went into my Manage Friends page and saw that his box was unchecked, so I checked it. How could this happen? I rarely unfriend anyone, and then only if they have grieveously wronged me in some way (which of course this person did not do).

If this happens to anyone else, PLEASE message me and let me know so that I don't lose you!


October 15th, 2009


Now that I'm unemployed, I find myself sitting around all day pumping my farms, zoo, fish tanks and mafia gang for money. What am I talking about? On FaceBook, I've now joined FarmVille, Farmtown, this cool online zoo thing at Birthday Cards, Happy Aquarium, FishWorld, and Mafia Wars. I'm most obsessed with the zoo and FarmVille. The thing is, you have to put a lot of effort in to make enough money to grow your farm/zoo/tank/gang -- visiting other people's farms and etc, doing little things like shaking trees at the zoos for coins. But it keeps the boredom at bay.

I'm also reading a great book called "The Lovely Bones" by Alice Sebold, which has apparently also been made into a movie that I shall have to rent once I finish the book. It's narrated by a 14 year old girl who was raped and murdered by a man in her neighborhood, and she's looking down from a very unusual heaven and watching her family and the investigation into her death. It sounds morbid but it's not -- I'm loving it. The girl's view of the world is quirky and always interesting. I'm only on page 47 so far but I recommend it.

My tummy is getting better, btw. I only eat one Tums upon waking, and none during the rest of the day.

On the job front, that job opportunity seems to have fizzled. She called twice (both times after 5 pm, oddly) and I called her back twice, and there's been nothing since. I guess I blew that one, but I'm okay with it.

I must go check on my zoo! Later!

September 17th, 2009

I should have mentioned!

I should have mentioned that I found the link and info about the Jesus photos in my dear friend hopefulone03 's journal. Thanks Stacy!!!

September 16th, 2009

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A fashion photographer took a series of gorgeous photographs in Italy to correlate to the parables of Jesus. They are an interesting juxtaposition of ancient and modern, with Jesus pictured interacting with people in modern dress in present-day places. Here is a link to my favorite one -- please check it out, as I think it will encourage many of you:


You can see the rest by clicking on the link "The Collection" at the top of the page. Enjoy!

September 15th, 2009


Rest in peace, Patrick Swayze.

April 30th, 2009

Thank you and God bless!

March 11th, 2007

It should be humorous. I'll let you know tomorrow, so I can do what naamaire has instituted for his new Internet Holiday, "Hilarity Ensues" Day, and put "and hilarity ensued" in all my LJ posts for that day. lol



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